i want to start writing in here again. but everytime i open this little white box, my mind blanks and i just don't know how to fill you in.

i've been sick for a long time but i'm finally taking real strides to get better.

i'm being thrust out into the world in a couple months and i just don't have a clue.

i'm feeling like i've lost a lot of time. and some friends and sanity to go along with it.

but i'm salvagable.

maybe i can't piece myself together to be the person i once was...but maybe what i can construct now with the bits i have remaining will be better.

this is a slow process.

please be patient.